Posted in Life on Sep 30th, 2008 No Comments »
Today hasn’t been a good day emotionally. Since last week things have felt tougher. The weekend was ok because I was so busy with F and O and the time flew past we had a lovely weekend but busy. After the news last week I feel even closer to Fin and miss her even more [...]
Posted in Life on Sep 25th, 2008 1 Comment »
Well no more news really on what I knew yesterday. The consultant explained about Downs Syndrome to us in a very simple way, I did almost feel like saying to him ok cut the waffle I get it I know what Trisomy 21 is I don’t need the simplistic analogy but I bit my tongue [...]
Posted in Life on Sep 24th, 2008 No Comments »
Today started fairly normally, I went into work early again as we are so busy at the moment and wanted to get a head start. All was normal until this afternoon when K rang me at work to say our Consultant had just rang and wanted to see us tomorrow at 1630. K said if [...]
Posted in Life on Sep 21st, 2008 No Comments »
This weekend seems to have been a whirl of emotions. Not sure if it was hormonal or just one of those weekends. I have felt totally stressed out about everything. Keep crying on and off and felt desparetly sad and lonely.
Loneliness has been a really hard thing to deal with throughout all of my miscarriages. [...]
Posted in Life on Sep 20th, 2008 No Comments »
When we were away on holiday O took to sleeping with me for a few nights he quite often does when we are in the caravan especially first thing in the mornings when it is cold. I was laying awake with him asleep next to me and it struck me how much O’s mouth and [...]
Posted in Life on Sep 19th, 2008 2 Comments »
We have been away for a week in Cirencester. Cirencester isn’t the place I would have normally chosen for a holiday destination but it was actually really nice. The caravan site is next to Cirencester Park and you can walk through the grounds into the town and it’s lovely. The site was really clean and [...]
Posted in Life on Sep 13th, 2008 1 Comment »
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born, that something stopped my heart,
I felt each tender squeeze you gave, I loved you from the start.
Although my body you can’t hold, it doesn’t mean I’m gone,
This world was worthy not of me, God chose that I move on,
I know the pain that drowns your soul, what you [...]
Posted in Life on Sep 9th, 2008 No Comments »
Today started off ok. O has a lovely snotty cold so decided no school for him today so that made the morning easier for me as I didn’t have to get him dressed so K could take me to work and have the car, I got to have the car all to myself. Work was [...]
Posted in Life on Sep 8th, 2008 No Comments »
First day back at work today. It was ok, no one asked any awkward questions and people said they were pleased to see me which was nice. Took all morning to sort my pc and email out and then most the afternoon to sort my intray out. Word seemed to get around fast and by [...]
Posted in Life on Sep 6th, 2008 No Comments »
Today is one of those none days, you know the days you get when time seems to tick away and you have done nothing all day. Feel a bit tearful today, I think it’s because I have to go back to work on Monday. I know I need to go back to work but am [...]